Merry Cherry Christmas!

Merry Christmas, everyone? =D

Hmmm.. I don't know what to write, well because I haven't write much lately, my last post was about a month ago or something? Haha I don't know, I have no inspiration to write anyway, realizing that writing blog wasn't much fun either cause I know, there are just little part of many people on earth that wasted their time just to read blog, I know, it hurts knowing that, but if they do find that the blog is wasn't even interesting at the first place, they wouldn't give any comments about the blog, or simply, read it until the blog is done. Well I hope people can give just a little bit of appriciation about someone's writing, cause they write something on this blog for fun, and the best, they write it to let people know about things that happens to them, show a little appriciation please, people =)


Let me tell you about my December. A good old December. Where should I start?

Uh okay, I know I know,

Let's start at the 5th of December. It's should've been my 26 anniversary with you-know-who but anywaaaaaaaay... we all know, broke up, broken heart, pain, tears, are just a little part that we should feel, right? We can't run away from those things, we should feel (even embrace, sucks) it no matter what =) I hate knowing the fact (or remembering) that it has been long since the good-days was lovely. People change, we should acept that changes, cause when you're busy makes critics about their changes, you should realize, you are changing too. So please, don't judge people too much if you don't want to be judge too, trust me, I know how it feels ;)


Next,


The Ugly Ugly Ugly Semester Test =D
Okay, started at 9th of December until 16th of December. Aaaaaah.. I say, it's the best test ever hahaha know why? Ah I won't tell you. So when the test was going, the 9th grade student were sitting with the 7th grade students (ah what can be better than freshments? haha =D)

Okay so the subjects at the first day was Indonesian and Religion studies. I still can going pretty well with this subjects, and yeay I have no remedial for these two subjects =D


The second day was Mathemathics and Javanese studies, uh I sucks at both studies =8 but anyway, I have no remedial either for these subjects =D I used a little cheats on Javanese studies (cause trust me, I can't speak a word of Javanese, so woof woof if I cheats just a tiny itty little bittttt =D)


The third day was English and TIK (I guess, cause I kinda forgot the tests schedule =D) ah I still can do these subjects, thank God this subjects were together hahaha I'm so happy, I didn't get any remedial for these subjects too yeay! =D


The fourth day was Social studies and Kewarganegaraan, ugh damn, these subjects really kills me, especially the kewarganegaraan --' Ughhhhhhhhhhh I'm MAD! Hahahaha but thank God I have no remedial for this subjects =D hehehe


The fifth day (15th of December) was Science and Art, it was the most hardest day ever, knowing yesterday was my birthday, and my birthday went pretty much well (but for many reasons, it sucks) hehehe buat anyway it's my best 14th birthday ever, alhamdulillah =D

The sixth day (also known as the last day ehe) was the easiest day of the last subjects haha there are unimportant subjects such as cooking and sport studies, very unimportant huh? hahaha so skip this two subjects, my exam went fine and I have no remedial for any of the subjects above hehehe yeay me! =D



And another thing on December.......

Oh yes, my birthday.. It went......... bad, I guess haha
I have no party, no plans for my birthday, but thanks for my sister and the rest of Seephylliz family, I could enjoy the rest of my birthday nicely and happily =)
It's my 14th birthday, and sadly, I didn't get anything from my parents =( maybe because this year, I didn't know what thing I want to be my present, simply, I just to take a full holiday for this semester's holiday outside Yogyakarta. I want to spend my holiday nicely, before the national exam. Cause I'll study hard for God sake on this second semester I will spend after my holiday. So please please please................ I hope my dad will allow me to go to some place where I want to spend my holiday at. (I've consider Jakarta, but hmm someone-oh-someone wouldn't let me go there for a reason, ugh)



Oh yea I forgot, I have my old best friend coming back to jogja, he was my best buddy when I was still on elementary school. But after graduation from elementary school, he went to Malaysia to continue his study (he's such a smartiepants, no wonder he's so lucky to go there and skip a year of junior high, now he's on senior high school, sigh, what a fun thing ha --")
Anyway, we spent much time together, and we play quite alot. He came to my house when it was my birthday (and with many friends of mine too, thank you all, i love you :D) and he bought me like the best present ever! He bought me 3 series of Twilight book. From Twilight to New Moon, and Eclipse =) thank you Arya, I really love the book =D


I really enjoy things on this month, but I have many reasons for crying so much lately too.. I'm happy, but in the other side, there's something that make me sad. Everytime it gets near, I always feel sad, scared, and just wanna do nothing.. Weird huh? =(

I've always been a very bad kid, and considering I will face the national exam, I will change my way to live. I mean, my way of treating people and anything else, I guess I have to change it. And I know, far away from here, there's someone who always support me and give me strength to move on and move on again. Thank You, A =)



I'm having hard time staying at home lately, knowing some problems are going on in my family, between Mom and Dad, I pick not to get in to their mess, I let my sister be a part of that mess, and I just like to watch them argue (and the wont stop).

I'm in a deep trauma, and I have no one to lay my head on. A shoulder to let me cry on. I need something, someone but I never find it. Why? Maybe because I'm too lazy to speak or to do things with someone else. I'm sorry for being such a dumbass lately.




It's weird thou, knowing I do things not like I used to do things. I like to read books (which is weird, cause I never like to read books, especially thick books, I'd rather sleep on it). I like to drink many many many Toffee Nut Latte on Starbuck all by my own (I can drink two Grande size of toffee nut latte al by myself, great huh?). Spending my time alone on starbucks between many people in Plaza Ambarukkmo whose enjoying their time with their friends or family, chatting and giggling about things.


"Why can I feel that way anymore?", I said to my self


Well, I have the answer actually. Maybe it's because I have never trusted anyone in my life (not my mom, dad, even my sister), I always been pushed down on my life (trust me, it's like a routine for me), I've never listened to people (eventhou they said that I'm a good listener, but I guess they are all wrong, literally), and I've never react much lately when people talk or say something that they it was amazing (I can't be a very WOW person when hearing something big is going on again).



I never been this way. It's true. I never ever wanted to be this way.



Maybe it was because of my fault from back then?

I don't know.




And the most weird thing is, I write, again. This is not normal, I didn't usually write this much on my blog (cause I usually didn't have a story, even if I have one, I couldn't even remember the details.)




"Maybe I got an alien attack. Maybe I drink too much coffee. Maybe I read too many books. Maybe I never listened to anything except music. Maybe I got karma.", again I'm talking to my self.

Karma?
It's a natural thing that happen to people. But please, people always said,

"Who believed in karma? It's a crazy thing,"

I know, I try not to believed in karma. But how? I have felt my karma, and ugh shit. It is hurt.



Someone's missing today. And I'm little bit happy nor sad too. Hahahahahaha stop, I'm laughing my ass out actually, Sorry =D
His mom looking for it, and for the third time in my life, his mom asking me for a favour. Well, I'm sorry Mam, but I'm not with your son anymore. And the last time we talk, he got mad at me Mam. So I'm sorry if he's upsad and not going home. Why don't you ask your son why he plays with that kind of friends? Hahahahahaha =D



Today is Christmas day! And I don't know what to do. I don't feel the Christmas fever either. It's weird huh? Maybe it's because our country is in the middle of crisis huh? I guess so hahaha =D
I saw Santa yesterday, he was walking around the mall to see if children would like some presents. And me, I'm sitting inside Starbucks. Looking at him. And he waved at me. I just returned it with a little smile.

And I said to my self,

"I want a present too.....",



Oh shut it Echa, you're a fourteen year old girl, you can't ask for present, you should give one for kids under your age! Ah dammit, I hate being a teenager -_-'



You know, I kinda miss writing like now.
I have these feeling of writing this morning. After I woke up, I drank my juice and went to bathroom to simply wash my face. Hmmm... Morning breeze..

It's raining so hard outside, but it's Christmas, why rain? Hahahaha poor poor Christmas..
There's no fun on this Crhistmas now.. Haha




I've decided, I will write on my blog once a month.
Maybe it'll be easy to write, when I have mood to write, I will write.
=D




Yesterday I thought about something, I hear my self talking.


"Why do I feel like I'm a 20 years old desperate woman?",

"I mean, I drink coffee at night, I read books, I go to coffee shop to read books, I write on my blog, and what I write is about my life. It's just weird,"



I know, I'm weird, cause I'm talking too my self.

And Anyway, beside reading, now I spent most of my time in my room. From sleep to eat, to drink coffee and read.

But I mostly enjoy my time to see movies on HBO. Gosh they have like so many great movies for this holiday season!!!!! From Transformers, Home Alone (1-5), Erin Brankovich, and many many manyyyyyyyyyyyyyy more! And it was all awesome, I swear to God =D





I guess that's all I want to write for my December blog edition. If you read it, please, do read it till it's over okay =)
And please, give a little comment about this one, I really appriciate if you do =)