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I'm a boring 21 years old girl living in a small but beautiful city -- Yogyakarta. Currently starting her career in a big corporate as a Creative Marketing Associate; trying to get through life one day at a time.
Love?

Shoot. Don't ask me about love. Cause I know NOTHING about love. I've been rolling with love since..... I'm young. But I have never... Ever be in one good love. So, tell me.. What is love?

Is it something that we give and take?

Yes, we can say that love is about giving and taking. But wait, what if we give our love to someone and they don't give it back? What if we just keep taking loves but never giving it back? Love is just a one confusing thing in this world that I always wish I never have it in my life. Wait, don't wish the same thing that I wish. I'm sorry.

Everyone says that love conquers all. Does it real? I think love only conquers for few people.. Cause as far as I know, when I (think) I fall in love, I always.. Always fell down real hard and then ends up hurting myself. And back to reality, back to the question... W-H-Y-?

Until now, there's no one that can explain to me about the exact meaning of love. And I bet the explanation about love from each person is different. Please... I'm so done with the meaning of 'love is when I'm with you', 'love is what you give and take', 'love is being with someone that likes you for who you are', but sadly.... No one ever loves a person for who they are, no one ever loves a person for just by being with him/her, and no one.. Ever loves someone that giving the love and take it away, 'again and again'..

After few times experiencing fucking traumatic experience about love, relationship, and faith.. I finally come to my senses where I should really be with someone that (I think) really love me well and trust me. But still... You can't find someone that such perfect as that. (But seriously, I don't ask more, Mirza is everything perfect for me, indeed.)

"When your heart gets broken, you start to see the cracks in everything.
It's my belief that the world is out to harden us,
And it's our mission not to let it."


One thing I know for sure,
I have to be strong everytime I get fucked up by love. You know, when you try real hard to keep everything in place, and they turned out fell out to places that you don't want it to be? Yes, that is the thing that always happens. And trust me, don't ever trust anything else but yourself.

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. You and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."


When you finally come to your senses....
I know that is what you will think of love.


And I'm still waiting for it.

Love,
Echa.

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