Better days.

I know, I know.. Sekalinya ngepost, pasti ngga bisa berhenti. It's typical me, maybe because.. My exam week is finally over. I have so much time to do nothing but sitting in front of my laptop and trying to write all the things that I have inside my head. Tapi setiap gue baca post sebelum - sebelumnya, menurut gue semua tulisannya lebih kayak pointless, don't you think? Kesannya hidup gue mellow banget.. Well, I don't really know what I truly feel, but, I'm kind of mixed up now. I can't think straight -- okay, I know, here goes the sad post again.


Hari ini gue -- kayak hari - hari biasanya, banyak mikir. Gue sadar banget belakangan ini gue selalu muram for no apparent reason, apakah lagi ngetrend ya? Harusnya engga. I'm not used to being muram all the time. I usually have some things, like quotes, or even just a smile from someone else (or stranger) can make my day better. I have this one quote that I really like, it said, "Smiling: a free way to make an impact on someone else's day." I think this one is just sweet. Senyum itu ibadah. Mungkin menurut lo kebanyakan senyum bisa disangka gila, atau dibilang sok ramah, tapi siapa yang tau juga kalo senyuman lo bisa bikin hari seseorang jadi lebih baik? Dan seseorang yang gue maksud adalah siapapun itu, don't be picky darling :)


For a few days, I almost forgot that my birthday is getting near and near. Seminggu lagi men, turning 17 years old for finally! Akhirnya gue bisa punya KTP! *ambil tissue, lap air mata* Selama ini gue cukup sedih ya ngeliat temen - temen pada heboh bilang, "Eh jadwal bikin E-KTP kapan sih?", dan blablabla.. Gue belom punya KTP, after all this time. After all "muka kamu boros banget", "ih kemana - mana udah bisa nyetir sendiri", "sekarang udah gede ya..", "ini Echa? Udah semester berapa?", crap.. Well, om, tante, budhe, pakdhe, dan manusia lain yang mikir this kid with this incredibly old-look face bahkan belum umur 17 tahun. Maaf ngecewain ya, tapi tunggu sebentar lagi, as soon as I get my KTP, I'm going to feel so much more mature :-)

Well, enough with all the shits, gue mau bikin post yang beda deh sekarang. I have this new interest in music box. Especially the crystal ball one. Ini aneh sih, gue baru punya satu, dan gue punya ini udah hampir satu tahun. Know why? Ini adalah kado ulangtahun gue dari seseorang, tahun lalu. Awalnya gue sempet mikir, apa banget dikasih kado crystal ball gini, but I fell in love with it. Who knows that this crystal ball has accompanied me & help me catching some sleep everytime I feel like I can't sleep for the past 12 months? And the most sickest part is, the lullaby from this crystal ball is a song (in fact a very cute song & one of my favorite) from Johnny Cash. I think you know what the title is. No? Okay, it's I'll Always Love You (In My Own Crazy Way). I shocked. I fell in love with the song since I was a kid. You know, there's this part on the lyric that says, "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.. You make me happy when skies are grey. You'll never know dear, how much I love you.. Please don't take my sunshine away." This song is as sweet as candies.. And this lullaby is perfect to drive me to dreamland :-)

Anyways, I found this when I was browsing tumblr. I think this quote can explain what I do with people around me. Please don't get weird, I'm just explaining myself right here, okay?




I've let people judge me for a long time. I always think I want to stand up for myself but heck, what am I doing it for? Judging someone is your right. But how you judge someone, is different. I've been judged in so many different way. But I'm not good at standing up for myself. Maybe that's just the way I am. But I'm not arrogant, I tell you. Someone once told me that I always be too nice to people. So why the hell some random (even people that I don't even know they exist) say that I'm an arrogant bitch? Pardon my french, but I am not. This is what I think the art of standing up. I'll take it one by one, I guess?

I think this is all for today.
I better start studying for tomorrow's test. I know I told you that the exam week is finished but I got one daily test left to do. So, wish me a good luck? You better.

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